m0m....

Mom...

has influenced me a lot... has taught me a alot... has made me half the person i am.... Despite sometimes i feels that i was expected to be an adult before the actual right time,... looking on the positive side, i was introduced to value of patience, the strength of understanding, the power of listening, the magic of giving in, the skills of managing and delegating, the arts of music, the beauty of dressing fashionably, the thrill of trying various hairdo's, and the list go on and on...

I looked at my mom as a lady that has lots of potentials. She has made it all the way from a village girl from Batu Pahat. She manages to go to Secondary School despite al the limited resources that available of a farmers household. She was nearly fall into a mixed marriage where she was then been talked badly about for years... she was engaged at the age of 15!.. talking bout those days... sigh.. Anyhow,.. mom was a believer,... she wanted to make a difference to her family. She told me how she envied her frens dat had their father working as a teacher becoz they managed to get books... but she was grateful that she cud borrowed frm them. Grandma didnt like the idea of furthering to secondary school. Mom was expected to help at home with making jamu or "opak" for sale. but mom had her vision looking beyond all that...

Mom, was a good leader and a manager... she manage all 6 of us,.. she was our cook, driver, teacher, all her frens adores her,... she cud be so joyful and full of humor at times where you cud resist laughing your ass off!... mom was a chairmain of several committee, was a member of AJK Wanita Bahagian Pulai and Ketua Wanita Cawgn.. for several terms... now she gave all that up and settled with Surau and Berzanji activities.

I love you mom,.. maybe i didnt say it often enuff.. but you are one of the source of my strength. Thanks for bringing me up,.. teaching me about values of life,..caring me when i was sick,... thanks for being patience handling me during my rebellious teenage and youth crisis moments, thanks for teaching me how to cook,... and thanks for always reminding me that i'm a kakak....

I just wish that i cud one day be a mother too... and seek for your advice in being a good one... Love you mom...

HaPPy MotHer's Day mom!....

ZeTTy BobeTTy.....

We were at the back seat of the car. It was a white volvo, plat number PS 3630. I was about 6 years old. Dad was driving pass Zoo Negara,.. and heading to KL, i couldn't remember exactly where were we heading to. But as we were passing the zoo, Girl tapped on my shoulder...

Girl : "girl nampak ajen....."

Me : "apa?"

Girl : "girl nampak ajennn..."

Me : " apa???..."

Girl : " girl nampak ajennnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!....."

Mom and Dad were laughing... Girl was angry and upset that i didnt get what she was saying....

I really miss Girl...

I talked to my sister in Melbourne just seconds ago... so much to catch up after 10 days not communicating via internet. Well I hope things gonna get better for you Girl,... Really miss you dear. Hope i cud visit you this year.

My Quote of the Day,.. its never too Late 4 me, but it's too late 4 u...

sTill WisHing n H0piNg n tHinKing n PraYing...

Wind...

BLows away the awfuL PaiN...

RaiN...

WasHes awaY tHe HearT-acHes...

M00N...

gL0ws mY spiRit and sTrength...

SuN...

Shines mY faiTh n BeLieve ... in L0Ve...

It's LiFe... YoU GaiN s0me, U LoSe s0me....

Life challenges are not supposed to paralysed you, it actually helps you to discover who you actually are... but i realised in life we couldnt have everything. When we gain some we lose some... thats mutual...

TuRning A New Leaf... a g00d start...

WisHing and HoPing and tHinKing and Praying....

An0ther t0Ugh Epis0de of My Life....

After the laposcropic surgery last June, i had my mensus every month which was good news to me. But this Nov, i had my mensus 3 times... the last 2 was after a typical condition. I was weak and quite panic about the whole thing. Last Tuesday, it had gone worst. I felt weak and dizzy. A ride in the cab to ER seems like a ride on a roller coaster...

For a moment there, i thot i'm gonna blacked out when i got out from the cab. Coz i seemed to lost my hearing for about 2-3 mins... I managed to enter the ER with my backpack and my handbag. They rushed me in. I just handed them a list of records of my mensus i managed to jot down before i left home. I was then sent to see a Gynae who happen to be one of my BFF's aunt.

My BP was high! 146/119... Uterus seems to be in normal size. i was not having a miscarriage but the reason of the bleeding cannot be determine yet. Some test will be make after 2 weeks time. I was sent to the ward and admitted. I was given pain killers for the pain. It worked well...Shortly after that a doc came and was referred by my gynae becoz of my BP. I was put under observation. It was taken by surprise that i had that hi BP despite my regular exercise, weight loss and my eating habits was always less salt and mutton/lamb was just every 6 mths.

I was grateful and touched by the well wishes from Family, friends and relatives. Thanks to Hubby for the insurance coverage, to mom, dad, dian, amin, anna, dboy... Wan, Dila & family( Forrest, Faiz, Fauzan,Fariz), Ainon, Hanif, Yusri, Afiq, Lazli, K. Eddy for visiting

To my beloved sister ,Girl...To Fida, Amirsham, Nurul, Khairi, Ramesh, Nazam, Ajid, Ely, Shahiza, Nadia, Shida, Maria, Pnut, Rina, Yuzana, Syaril, Rahman, Jetz, Rusly, Ojet, Azraee, Irwan, Myra, Shaniza, Nad, Hani Ezra, Jay, Deeba, Lokman, Adek, Adilin, Zaza, K.Rehan, K.Midah, K.Fina, K.Linad, Juliana, Aida, Shuhada, Pinat, Nazelyn, Idariz, Rahiza, Rinawati, Ismail, Fidi, Shamini, Wan Rejab, Azizan B0y, Elaine, Zeen, Zulie....Mama, Mamamin, K. Lina, K.Norly, Chu Salmah, Abah n Bonda, Jaja, Lina,...thanks for the well wishes via calls/sms/FB/emails.

t00k me 15 mins-20 mins to swallow all of it...

enj0ying the c0mpany and reminiscing s0me childhood memories...

cravings for tosaai... Thanks alot Dila!!!! I love u s0 much!!!

thanks my 2 sayang, Ameen and Mariati@Siti Zaleha! who never failed to make me laugh... they asked me to raised my hand like dat, pose hospital katanyer..

my sweet, bubbly, emo and mischief lil sister.. Ameen... i always love u sayang... i still remember how cute and keypoh u were when u were little....how i wish i cud turn back the clock and appreciate those moments more...

semua nak "p0se hospital" jugak... :p

macam demam kura-kura!!!

messing with the bed!!!

tgh visit org sakit pun sempat Fb and Farmville jugak...

enjoying my tossai...

tak abis pun makan.. but ameen sruh pose... :p

cL0ser t0 NatuRe...

Went to visit my inlaws on 3rd day after Raya Haji.... and we had a short trip to Tanjung. Abah's latest project was going bananas on having banana farm! :)

We were there for some support and helped out... we had to hopp on a boat to reach there. And before we went off, Abah showed me the Pulau they always mentioned... i really enjoyed the view...

cann0t UnD0ne

Yupp... cannot!

0nce said, cann0t be und0ne...

Yesterday, for the 2nd time somebody very dear to me...YELLED at me and said "Pukimak punyer pompuan!"

Nobody else ever said that to me...

I will never forget that, till the day i die...never!

Last Day of Raya...

Today was marathon of open houses... The 1st house was Kak Zah's house at PULAPOL. Going there was like walking down memory lane. Located next to my primary skool,. i had lots sweet fun memories there with frens. Being active in skool of extra curricular, i often stayed back. My house was far frm skool. I normally dropped by and play at my frens house while waiting to kill the time. I had fun at Sharon's and Azlina's and a few others.

After K. Zah's, i went to Afiq's at Ampang. Ely was there. I had a great time catching up with them. Even tapau some Nasi Dagang and daging dendeng... Next was Ely's at Bukit Jalil... and followed by Pnut's at Bukit Jelutong. I had a great day. Catching up with my BFFs..

me with Afiq and Ely

used to round around and play here...

NeiGhBouRs...

The housing area i'm living was developed around early 80's. Hence 80% of the owners are retired citizens... Today i attended an open house at Auntie BiBah's and Uncle Z's. There i met Auntie Fauziah with 2 of her daughters, her son in law and 2 adorable grandchildren.I finally met all 3 of Auntie Bibah's son and her daughter in-law.

Enjoying Nasi Bukhary, we were served with fruits from Uncle Z's farm. Among them were Durian and Pulasan. We stayed for lil bit... and when we were about to leave, I was introduced to Kak Liza. Her house was next to Auntie BiBah's.

We ended up talking for another 45 mins. Exchanged numbers and she promised to take me out for bowling one day.

Pah Bedah....

Had a video and voice call with LIL Miss Zara via YM... Pah Bedah betul budak ni... she was so talkative and all excited.... asking me questions i and telling me stories i do not understand... LOL! But when she laughed, i laughed too.... i sure was laughing at her adorable chittery words and i guess she must be laughing at my wrong responses... or my expressions.. HAhaha!..Everytime i talked to Jaja on the phone, Zara surely insist on being on d phone too...normally i'll end up singing 'I love u, u love me' By Barney...

Here is a video of us singing "shinevering kidding- kidding" by Lamb Chop Play Along...

ThE C0rrS cRaZE...

Now dat I've started FLICKRing,... the more urge i have to own a SLR camera... While exploring Aperture... i listen to songs from The CoRRs.. Used to really love them.. I wonder, where were my CD's?....

Eyes of a z0mbie...

After a call from mom and one of my siblings late last night, i really cudnt sleep. I felt for them but there's nothing i cud do to help. I wish I cud be there giving a helping hand..

MirAcLes...

Just when i was getting used to yesterday,.. along came today...

inSomNIAc!!!

Cudn't sleep.. i've been surfing on SLR cameras..admiring photos on Flickr..getting into photoshop forums, watching aperture tutorials ....