♥....

I'm so happy today... so full of LOVE... YeaY!!!!

WheRe TheRe Is ♥... TheRe iS LifE...

A gr8 DaY...

Life can only be understood backwards,... but it must be lived forwards...

StaRless NiTe...

My day doesnt start well today... I was having tummy cramps... menstrual pain... It was so uneasy...

Here's a song i was crazy about when i was sweet 17... and the same crazy feeling came back..

I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky...
I wanna live a day
That never dies....

BACK TO THE SANCTUARY....

Just arrived from Perak... I'm finally back in KL.. went to Chu Salmah's house in Ipoh again... 2 days in a row!!!... LOL! We left Kuala Kangsar about 8:45pm...Chu's sambal kuah kacang is to die for... She served Mee Kuah, Laksa, Nasi Impit and my favourite Sambal Kuah Kacang... We was there untill about 1a.m....

Next destionation was Kampar... LiL Miss Zara's crib.. ;)

We were there untill about 3:30am...and reached KL about 5am. I already miss Zara... my lil munchkin..

mischief LiL ZaRa was monkeying with me just after i was discharged from hospital 3 mths ago after undergo laposcropic surgery on ovarian drillings

Me and Zara while visiting FIL when he was admitted in KK Hospital

Strike a pose...

Zara enjoys KLCC

DeePer C0nVerSati0N....✿

LIPStick MaDnESS...

LiL Miss Zara SoPhia has found a red lipstick and decided to put it on, all by herself...

YummY FrEncH ToaSt....♥

Still in Sauk, Perak...

After Friday Prayers, me and hubby joined the rest of the family at Taiping. Bonda's sister, Makcik Maznah is having an open house. We met Lina and Abah at Taiping Central and chilled at Starbucks before heading to Makcik Maznah's...

We were there untill around 8p.m.. We hit a few other houses after that at Chandan and Lubok. Reached home about 12midnite... Jaja, Zara and Wan arrived shortly after that.. YEay!!! my lil Zara is back!!!..

We waited for Ame from JB untill about 3am... Jaja then made Kampung Fried Rice while i made a whole loaf of french toast...

My eyes can hardly open but i might as well wait for Subuh before dozing off since it's already 5am... Hope tommorrow gonna be a great day too... Maybe we are going to Ipoh n crash Chu Salmah's house..♥

I wiLL aLwaYs l0vE U...

SwEET OpAh...

a shot from at the back of Opah's Crib (now FIL's) taken a year ago

I didnt fast today... Ada tahlil at Mak Long's during lunch... They served ayam masak merah, gulai lemak ikan masin nenas, sambal kelapa/nyior, kerabu mangga... sangat sedap!!!!....♥

I really need to visit the doc becoz i've been vomiting after my meal. :(

I slept the rest of the afternoon, feeling not too well. Felt better after that thou. Managed to join FIL and the rest to Ulu Kenas, raya visits to Opah Yan's house. She was different than the last time i saw her. She's been in and out of hospital a few times. But she's still the pleasant and warm Opah i knew. She was Hubby'y late Opah's younger sister. Looking and talking to her, suddenly had me realise i miss Opah Saodah, hubby's late grandma. She was so pleasant towards me. I really miss her. She passed away 3 mths after my wedding. She was the one who places my engagement ring on my finger...

Everytime i visited her, even before i was married, she were always so pleasant... offering and serving foods of my favourite. Being raised by Johorean influence i pretty much only eats open sea fish. But i was introduced to fresh water fishes by frens and hubby's family. I ♥ Catfish/keli but i normally detached it's head before i put the fish in my plate. I remember telling Opah about that and later on my next visit i realised that al Keli served on the table was headless... LOL!

I know i will never be able to even cook the fish... eating it was a pleasure but i cannot look at the head... maybe just a glimpse... :D

As we were already at pekan Kuale,.. we dropped by at Mak Teh's and later been directed to Kak Yati's house which was just 5 minutes away. Kak Ti's served us delicious Mee Fishball Soup. Hubby had 4 servings of it!!! Kak Ti's husband is a prison warden at Taipeng Jail. We asked him lots of questions about prisoners. There was this old blind malay man who were found guilty for rapping his daughter!!!! What was wrong with this fellow?!!! sigh...

Hubby was asked questions bout misc vessels and d piracy at Somalia. Melati Dua, the 1st ship that was hijacked, was the vessel i joined for 8 mths 2 years ago.

RaYa bluEs...

Mom promised to call but didnt call...huhu...

I woke up today feeling down... I suddenly wish that nenek will stay in good health, talked to nenek on the phone last nite while visiting some relatives...

After helping Chu in d kitchen, i turned to UNO in FB for several hours... i even dozed off while on the game... maybe i didn't get a good sleep... Zara, Jaja and Wan left for Kulim late afternoon. It was raining heavily...

At about 5pm, i joined Chu Salmah at Mak Long's... Chatting with K.Ani, Ija, Yong and Kak Chik on the kitchen table... They were hillarious!!! As i was fasting and been watching them eating, they had packed some dishes for me for iftar.

After Isyak, hubby, me and some cousins cruising for some Fried Mee, Mee Rebus and such at Kuak... but we were there just to be disappointed coz they ran out of food... LOL!! We ended up having foods at Lenggong and dropped by at Bonda's at Sauk. I was drooling over Ikan talapia masak lemak!!!.. i had the fish without any rice while chatting with Chu and the rest... Hubby was waiting for the Ketupat Palas... I 'm not a fan of sticky rice.. but i do take it occasionally... I noticed i love talapia nowadays... yummy...

Tomorrow there will be a tahlil at Mak Long's during the afternoon... i was thinking i would still fast during the day... I hope I can managed to keep some great dishes for my iftar....

The Apartment, D'Curve on 13th Sept

I L0vE U, U L0vE mE....

I called my family a few times.. really miss them...

Me and Jaja planned to make roti jala, chicken curry while assist Lina with her Mee Daging. But ended up with Mee Daging and Soto ayam. I was having headaches again, severe headaches...

I vomited after having my iftar... But i felt lil bit better after that. Later during the evening, i joined some relatives visited more of Hubby's relatives at nearby village along with Hubby, Zara n family.... We came home about 1a.m...

Zara was having a difficult time getting to sleep... she kept pressing Barney's chest and the theme song was played over and over again in our dark room... LOL!!!

This is what i heard over and over again... she whom speaks her own language we can hardly understand managed to hummed to the song and giggles everytime it finished...

DaM- dAM-D00m!!! BuNyI mErcUN.....✿

I was fasting yesterday. I was having headaches the whole day. I tried to sleep it off....Plus the day was quite gloomy with heavy rains non-stop. Didn't go anywhere. I called mom a few times but she was busy with the gathering. They were having a blast over there. Dian told me the weather was good,.. everything went on smoothly...

I wanted to cook dinner but it seems nothing was in the freezer... out of stock....That reminds me to ask Hubby to go to the market 2moro.

I join some kids and fellow neighbours late last nite... they said they have some cool fire crackers.. And OMG!!! that was really cool!!! I had a fun time... it must have cost a fortune... But i heard some Dato' sponsored... LOL!

BuNdLe Of j0Y..♥

the breeze

Happiness uplifts me
Happiness fills my heart, my mind, and my soul
Happiness gives me the strength I need
Happiness is a good feeling that enters my mind each day
Happiness takes my sadness away
Happiness fills my eyes with joy
Happines makes me excited and thrilled
Happines warms my heart and soul each day
Happiness gives me a sense of relief each day
Happiness welcomes me each morning when I get up
Happiness can be seen in my eyes

eid mubarak

When i heard takbir raya,.. i was at home,my own place i called home. Its a mixture of feelings... Normally i'll be away from home on raya eve. It's either at my mom's or at Nenek's in Batu Pahat...

This year, for the very 1st time,.. i was at my HOME... I looked thru the window... i feel blessed, i feel mature, i feel that every Eid i have encountered more meanings...

When i heard the TAKBIR,.. i ran down and hugged my hubby... The 1st time we were both having Eid together in our own house. A moment of bliss...

My family dropped by before they left for Batu Pahat... It will be the 1st time for Dian to celebrate Eid as a wife. Mom shed a tear when i kiss her... I pretended i didnt see that. There will be a family gathering event at Nenek's on d 2nd day of Eid... There will be a tahlil and marhaban, telematch which i was supposed to organise (been taken over by Dian).

Me and Hubby hit the hi-way at about 1:11am.. and 2 hrs later we were already at Kuala Kangsar...Yes i do miss my family, i miss my grandma,.. i miss the smell of the foods in my grandma's kitchen... i missed the greets i will receive from my relatives that breed from 12 aunties and uncles... i miss being introduced to new members of the family... but when i saw the look on my FIL's face when we arrived,... i felt at home. I felt belong. I love the feel of being there... Maybe it wud have been merrier when late Opah was still around but Lil Zara has brought so much joy and happiness in the family...

I love being around Mak Long's family too... the visit to her kitchen and having a supper is a must..

I called Dboy,.. they were busy decorating the the tent with balloons..Hmmm... i'm gonna miss the nasi beriani gam they will be serving....

This was taken about 2 mths ago... me, mom and Nenek...

My Fav0uRitE PieCE...

Bitter Sweet..

I cannot see you like this All worried and depressed Your face darkened And your eyes so sad Heartbroken. I want you to smile and grin All the time And I want you to dance I want you to sing Or just hum Some happy song. But I don't want you to do so Because I tell you to. I want you to do so Because you want to. Because you are happy. Comfortable. Cheerful. Confident. Joyful. Happy. Sunshiny. And I want you to see: Tommorow's gonna be better. ~ a poem gave by one of my BFF's

Fly aWay..

i wish i cud fly to the stars

I heard the wind blows...

I saw the storm is coming...

I feel the rain showers...

I didnt run for shelter

cud i fly?...

L00kInG ThrU...

-where are the rainbows,..

the rain has stopped...

I thot the sun started to shine..

-where are the rainbows..

-where are the stars...

the moon is glooming

i thot d clouds are clear

-where are the stars...

i wAs T0LD....

at 5 i was told,.. be good kakak,.. your sisters follows you...

I watched my steps...

at 7 i was told,.. good job kakak... your sisters looked up to you

i watched my steps...

at 9, i was told,.. you make us proud kakak... your sisters wanna excel too..

i watched my steps...

at 12, i was told to understand a grieve

i watched my steps.. but i cudnt see the path

it was so bumpy....

it started there...